Friday, September 13, 2013


Wow…It has been a long time since I visited my blog page!  It was a busy summer.  We traveled 5 weekends…three to the lake, once to the beach, and once to Longview for a family reunion.  In addition, I even snuck in a shopping trip to Houston with my Mom and Sister.  On top of that traveling, this was the “sickest” summer I have ever heard of.   We had colds, roseola, strep, and sinus infections run rampant through our house. (Plus a whole LOT of teething!!!)   If we weren’t traveling, someone was sick.  Still, we fit in a lot of fun, and I am so thankful and blessed by the time I got to spend with all of my family over the summer!

So, now that we are back into the school routine, I am tackling projects on the house…cleaning out, organizing, decorating, etc., etc., etc.  (I am very aware the list will never end!)  =)  Today, I decided to touch up the paint in our upstairs rooms.  Over the summer, we moved Shane into his new suite room upstairs.  Chase moved into Hunter’s nursery, and Hunter moved into Shane’s old room.  It feels so good to have everyone moved into their new rooms, because this OCD Mama couldn’t stand the “stuff” being all over the place!  We had a media room added on upstairs right at the time Chase arrived, and I just now have it pretty much together.  All that being said, the media room had some scratches on the new paint from moving in furniture and hanging things on the walls.  AND, a child that I won’t call out by name picked some chunks of paint off the wall in his new room one night (ever read “Unglued”!).  =)  As a result, this morning I found touching up paint on my to-do list, so I can say that I am finished upstairs for now. 
At first, as I was painting, I could see where I touched up the blemishes.  After turning on the ceiling fan and returning after just a few minutes, I couldn’t even see the multiple places where I'd touched up the paint.  It looked so much better!  No more white spaces screaming out at me from our latte walls!  The Holy Spirit spoke to me as I was painting this morning.  “This is what Jesus has done for you…washed away your blemishes (sin).  As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.  (Psalm 103:12)”  Thank you, Jesus!  “He has made you new in Him.  Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:  The old has gone, the new is here!  (2 Corinthians 5:17)

"Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!” (John 1:29)
Unlike my cover-up painting this morning, Jesus doesn’t just “touch us up”.  My blemishes aren’t hidden under paint…Jesus has taken them away!  Praise the Lord!  Jesus not only forgives our sins, He removes them completely.
"But you know that he appeared so that he might take away our sins. And in him is no sin.” (1 John 3:5)
Dear Friend, Do you know Jesus?

“ If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Friday, April 26, 2013

Mommy Blogging = This

Pretty much how it goes around here.  While accomplishing one thing...something else is getting undone.  In this case, Hunter's face (hopefully that is all). 

Dodging Dinosaurs

Most days, this little man is my lunch date.  Today was no different than any other day until he surprised me at the end of lunch by taking me on a little adventure.  There was a dinosaur in our backyard!!!  He even told me that I had to hurry to save puppy dog (our dog, Molly) in the backyard.  We escaped the dinosaur by running upstairs and hiding under the covers in the guest bedroom.  He repeatedly popped out from under the covers to look out of the upstairs window to monitor dinsaur activity, and let me tell y'all, he could definitely see him!  He kept telling me the dinosaur was cute, even though we were apparently running from it.  He was even whispering, and I assume that was so the dinosaur couldn't find us.  He kept this up until I said it was nap time, which he made clear he was not happy about!  This boy has a big imagination at 2 1/2 years old!  A couple of blog posts ago, I wrote about chasing those rainbows with our children.  The Word reminds us that time is fleeting and our days are numbered.  Hunter will only be 2 for six more months!  I have to constantly be reminded to chase those rainbows.  Dinosaur chasing counts too, even if they're chasing you!  =) 

Standing in His Grace if this is what my kitchen table looks like 10 minutes before dinner...well, you can only imagine what the rest of the house looks like by this time of day.  =)  (And no, that cute little 2-year-old is not allowed to be up there!!!)  If only there were audio to this picture. You would hear the 2-month-old crying for milk, Sprout pouring from the t.v., and timers beeping saying our salmon/carrots/french fries are done.  If you could see more of this room, you would see a crazy-tired Mama filling out birthday invites, emptying the kindergartner's folder, shuffling around dishes, fixing a bottle, and telling a two-tear-old to get off the table before he busts his head open.  Don't you want to do 5:30 p.m. with us?  I am sure that Daddy has trouble not going over the speed-limit trying to get home to this. LOL 

Though this time of day can be stressful, I am in no way complaining.  I love my crazy life with 3 boys under kind of works out for someone who can't sit still for very long anyways!  I love being a stay-at-home mommy and wife.  Last night, Daddy knew I needed a break and took the older two outside to play for an hour.  (He really is THE BEST! He even bathed them both.)  I was able to feed Chase (twice) and do some much-needed cleaning up.  Then, after everyone was in bed, I was finally able to have the ultimate "me-time"...worship music and Pinterest.  =)  Eventually, this season of life will come to a close (the season of complete and utter exhaustion).  One day my house will be too quiet and too clean.  Right now, I'm going to do my best to enjoy the noise and the dirt...but mostly the 3 that create them.

"Those years when I only did little people ministry within my home worked out some kinks between me and the Lord and perfectly prepared my heart to be so much more real and authentic.  I came to realize my desperate need for God like never before.  I came to realize my desperate need for grace like never before.  I came to realize that even a rule-following girl like me can be pushed to cuss.  And then I realized even more grace than before."  (Am I Messing Up My Kids?  By Lysa TerKeurst)

Yes...that is right where I am.  I am a Mommy that is standing in His grace daily.  I am running to the King throughout the day...for strength, for peace, for forgiveness and grace.  I am so happy and blessed to be "Mom" to the three cutest boys I know! 

Psalm 25:4-5

4 Show me your ways, Lord,
teach me your paths.
5 Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Time is Fleeting...Chase a Rainbow, or a Frog!

Some words that spoke to me during my quiet time yesterday:
“I don’t want to be the older woman sitting at the park watching other people live and love and laugh and think about all the simple pleasures I missed out on with my children.  Why didn’t I sit in the backyard and blow bubbles?  Why didn’t we lie in the grass and name the shapes of the clouds above us?  Why didn’t we read a fairy tale and then find a toad and kiss him just to see?  Why didn’t we talk longer, play harder, and spend more time dreaming together?  And did we even once chase a rainbow’s end?"

"Our children are like that rainbow.  They burst on the scene of our lives in such a way that you feel as though they’ll be there forever.  Their colorful personalities and bright expressions are shining reminders of God’s promises and miracles.  They dance through their childhood, making lasting impressions on our hearts, and then the time comes for them to pull away.  The colors of childhood swirl and mix and change and fade into the realities of adulthood.  It will happen.  There will come a day when the door to childhood will open for one last time, and that night, as surely as that child closes (his) eyes to sleep, the door will close.  All the curious questions that drive you crazy today will cease.  All the fingerprints and smudges will go away.  All the childhood fantasies and dreams will fade.  And (his) mother will wake the next morning to peer into the sky and wonder where the rainbow has gone.

Intentionally letting go of mommy stress and choosing to enjoy motherhood enables us to capture these times.  I want to become a family that lives better, richer lives.  I want to know my children at a deeper level than the hustle and bustle of a stressed-out life allows.  To know my children on a deeper soul level is to come to discover the joy of parenting." (Am I Messing Up My Kids?...and Other Questions Every Mom Asks by Lysa TerKeurst)
Spending time with Jesus can truly change the course of your day.  =)  When Shane got home from school yesterday, I left the laundry, the dishes, and the mail and went outside to play.  We blew bubbles.  We made up games and obstacle courses.  We popped balloons that had candy inside.  AND, how sweet was it of God to put a frog in our path, or shoe?!  =)  Spike (named by Shane) was in one of Daddy's mowing tennis shoes when he went to put it on!  We put "earwax paper" (Shane quote) on the slide and made it super fast.  My sweet Chase slept through all of this, and I spent precious time with Shane and Hunter.  I had two, tired stinky boys by bedtime! 
Heavenly Father,
Please help me with balance in my life.  May your priorities be my priorities.  Help me to see my children from your perspective.  Guide me, and help me be obedient in You, so that I may be a good steward of ALL that You have given me.  Most of all, help me be the Mom you intended me to be...may all I say, think, and do point my boys to Jesus.  I  pray that Shane, Hunter, and Chase would all come to trust in Jesus as their Lord and Savior.
In Jesus Name, Amen!
Psalm 39:4-6 “Show me, Lord, my life’s end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting my life is.  You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Everyone is but a breath, even those who seem secure.  Surely everyone goes around like a mere phantom; in vain they rush about, heaping up wealth without knowing whose it will finally be."
Psalm 89:47-48 "Remember how fleeting is my life.  For what futility you have created all humanity!  Who can live and not see death, or who can escape the power of the grave?"

Time is fleeting...Take Initiative for Meaningful Experiences

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Lessons in the Car: Relationship vs. Fellowship

Picture of If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord - Free Pictures -
This morning, God gave me an awesome opportunity to share about relationship versus fellowship with my five-year-old son, Shane.  My boys watch Boz the Bear a lot when we are in the car.  For those of you that don’t know, Boz is a Christian program for children, and it is one of the few shows that both my two-year-old and five-year-old enjoy together.  This morning the boys were watching Boz as I drove Shane to school.  Boz was singing a song that went, “God made you, and He likes what He sees.”  Now, Shane has probably watched this show 20-plus times, but this morning this line stood out at him.  He said something along the lines of, “Not always, God doesn’t always like what he sees.  Not when we do wrong things!”  So first of all, big smile on Mama’s heart (because things are sinking in!).  Second of all, Wow!  We are doing some pretty deep thinking on the cartoon sing-songs on the way to kindergarten!  Now before we go into what Shane and I talked about, let me just say that the writers of Boz weren’t wrong in writing this line of the song.  In context, they were talking about God’s creation (us), and God loves His creation (people).  As I’ve mentioned before, we are not all God’s children, but we are all God’s creation. (Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—John 1:12)  God loves everyone, but only those who have put their faith in His Son have become His children. 

So with that being said, I told Shane that he was right, and that God definitely does not always like what He sees (our sin).  I explained to Shane that God’s love never changes for us though…even when we sin.  Here is how we talked about relationship versus fellowship:  “Shane, you know when you get in trouble Mama and Daddy still love you the same.  Nothing you do will make us not love you or love you less.  But, you know when you go to timeout/get a spanking/etc?  You don’t get to see us or be with us until you’ve said you are sorry and made right what you did wrong/start making the right choices.  This is like God’s love for us.  He loves us even when we sin, and we are still His children (if we have trusted in Jesus).  He never stops loving us, but we cannot be right with God until we ask for our sins to be forgiven.”  We were also able to recall the verse Shane learned in AWANA about how Jesus died for us while we were still sinners.  (Romans 5:8)   We discussed that when Jesus died for us, it was for all of our sin (we weren’t even born yet) our past sin, our sin today, and all of our future sin too! 

***Please realize that all analogies break down at some point.  I can never love my children as much or as unconditionally as our Heavenly Father.  Also, this analogy will not work for every person…unfortunately many children are not loved by their parents and/or do not receive appropriate discipline.

I was very excited that God placed this opportunity to share about Him this morning.  The relationship vs. fellowship with God is something that I didn’t understand for a long time (basically because I don’t ever recall learning this essential truth early on).  I would like to share a couple of paragraphs from First Steps for the New Christian by Eddie Rasnake.  This book really helped me understand this topic clearly.

“An important distinction to make in understanding what it means to abide is the difference between “relationship” and “fellowship.”  Think about your earthly family.  You have a relationship with your earthly mother and father that is unchangeable.  They gave birth to you.  Nothing can ever change the fact that they are your biological mother and father.  The relationship cannot be changed, but the fellowship can.  Let’s say you do something terrible and your parents are so upset that they kick you out of the house and disown you.  All fellowship with them would cease, but that would not change your relationship to them.  They will always be your biological parents.  In the same way, once we are born into the family of God, we have an unchangeable relationship.  He is, and always will be, our heavenly Father.   But choices we make do have an effect on our ability to enjoy the benefits of that relationship—our fellowship with God.  This distinction is at the core of what it means to “abide” in Him—abiding is all about staying in fellowship with Christ.

A picture God has given us our relationship with Him is our earthly family.  God wants to relate with us as a father to his children.  As our heavenly parent, He is committed to us with an unchangeable love.  But our choices can get in the way of experiencing His love.”

There is so much more, but I can’t print the whole book here! Haha  Let me just quote one more line that is so important to understand, “Our obedience is not something that earns a relationship with God, but something that flows out of it.”  Praise God for this truth, because there is NOTHING I can do to earn a relationship with God.  It is a free gift…accepted by faith alone, in His Son, Jesus Christ!  Have you accepted God's free gift of salvation?  Remember:  But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.  Your debt has been paid in full, dear friend.  All you have to do is genuinely place your faith in Jesus  and invite Him into your heart to be Lord of your life. 

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Fear Not

I feel very strongly that God has been speaking to me recently about fear.  We all have fears (snakes/heights/public-speaking/etc...),but I'm referring to a peace and joy-stealing kind of ongoing fear.  I am going to try to be very transparent in this post and share one of my greatest struggles with you.  I've suffered from panic attacks and anxiety for quite a long time.  I do believe that it intensified greatly when I had children.  Worry over my children is one of my greatest struggles in life.  I can stay awake for hours in bed at night and think of all kinds of things to worry over that most likely will never happen:  "What if Shane chokes on his lunch at school and no one notices?" "What if my kids are in a car accident while someone else is driving them?"  "What if my children never trust in Jesus?"...and there are SO many more, but you get the idea. 

Last weekend, I was home feeding Chase searching through the channel guide on the television.  I rarely watch t.v., but Kolby took the older boys to a basketball game, and it was REALLY quiet at our house...weird!  =)  I saw that Charles Stanley was on (love him!) and decided to watch his message, which was on fear.  The sermon really spoke to me, and I could sense the Holy Spirit speaking directly to me regarding fear and worry over my children and their safety.  The truth is that God does not want any of His children to live in fear.  It is possible to live without fear if we let Him give us His peace and put our trust solely in Him.  Dr. Stanley made it very clear at the end of his message that as with all of God's promises, they are only true for His children...those who know Jesus and have a personal relationship with Him.  He stated that in fact, those who do not know Christ have much to fear...a Godless eternity...which of course is easily remedied by trusting Christ as Lord and Savior.  (As a side note, there is a common misconception in the secular world (that my pastor refers to often) that we are all God's children.  In fact, we are all God's creation, and only those who are covered by the blood of Jesus can be called children of God.)  John 1:12 says, "Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God." After watching the message, I felt prompted to surrender my fear and worry over my children to Jesus.  It is going to take some very intentional thinking (Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.  Philippians 4:8), a whole lot of faith, and a whole lot of prayer.  But...(I can do all things through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13).

A few days after watching this message on fear, I got back into a great Bible study I am doing by Lysa TerKeurst called "Am I Messing Up My Kids?...and Other Questions Every Mom Asks".   Guess what the title of that day's study was...."Why Am I Always Worried?".  My words cannot tell you how much this chapter described me and spoke to me.  Honestly, it just made me feel better that I am not the only Mama out there thinking these crazy thoughts.  I am going to quote this book a lot in the rest of this blog post, so anytime you see bold italics it is taken straight from "Am I Messing Up My Kids?...and Other Questions Every Mom Asks" by Lysa TerKeurst. 

So I am sitting in carpool line waiting for Shane, and after having read the title of the day's chapter I know this one is definitely for me.  The first two lines:  "A father's greatest fear is usually that he won't be able to provide for his family.  A mom's greatest fear is typically that something will happen to one of her children." Well, that is certainly true for the White household!  "Fear is a funny thing.  It sometimes provides healthy caution, but more times than not it seems to produce undue stress and anxiety regarding things over which we have little to no control."  Keywords for Lindsay White:  undue stress and anxiety, control!!!  "The Bible has a lot to say about fear.  According to one Bible text search, "fear not, " or the equivalent to that, is said 365 times.  Let's see, how many days of the year are there?"  Yes, I do believe it would do my heart good to compile a list of these and read one each day!

In this particular chapter of the book, Lysa describes a time when one of her children went out to the lake with another family.  She then describes the anxious feelings and fears she had while the child was gone.  She asked her husband if he was having any of those same feelings, and he simply said no.  She then dug a little deeper and asked her husband the following: "Do you ever get scared when the kids ride in cars with other people?  I mean, do you ever see them ride off and lift up urgent pleas for their safety?  (Me:  Yes, YEs, YES!!!) Or what about when the boys went on that mission trip this summer?  Were your senses on high alert until they were once again safe under our roof?  What about when the girls flew to see their grandmother this summer?  Did any fearful thoughts of past plane crashes flash through your mind?"  Her husband responded that he wanted everyone to be safe and prayed for that, but that he wasn't ever really afraid.  Lysa wrote:  "Suddenly, a profound thought hit me.  I think this is why I am so mentally spent by the end of the day.  My mind is constantly on the go where my kids are concerned. - I have flashes of fear that pierce my heart and make my pulse quicken.  Mostly this happens when I hear of bad things happening to other children.  A terrible car accident, a brain tumor, a heart defect, a drowning, a child choking--this list of what-ifs goes on and on.  No wonder I'm so tired!"  Wow...that could've been me writing that statement.  I do not watch the news...I occasionally visit the KFDM website for news...and then I wonder why!?  "It's okay for us moms to be protective over our children and watch out for their well-being.  That's one of the most important aspects of our job.  But it's not okay for the fear of the unknown to paralyze us and stifle our kids in the process."  And here is where the real truth of the matter comes in: "The reality is that God has assigned a certain number of days to our children, and nothing we do or don't do will add to that number.  "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"  (Matthew 6:27)."  Yes, God has assigned a certain number of days to Kolby, Shane, Hunter, Chase, and myself.  That is truth.  The truth is that those I love all belong to Him, they are in His loving arms, and He knows what is best for them and me. 

Here is what it all comes down to:  "I have to state that they are His first and foremost.  I have to proclaim my love for God no matter what.  Yes, I ask for them to be kept safe.  Yes, I believe in the power and provision of prayer, but I have to realize that I cannot control my children's safety.  Not by my prayers, not by my worries, and certainly not by my fears.  --Lift each of your children up to the Lord.  Pray for their protection and provision.  Tell Him that you trust Him.  But let the deepest cry of your heart be for the courage to tell God you will love Him no matter what."

Lord, please let it be so!

Here is the key verse for both Charles Stanley's message and for this chapter of my Bible study.  Think God was clear enough for me, yet again?!  =) Actually, this verse had been on my heart before either of these two things occurred. 
"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10